I needed the past two days to happen to teach me a lesson. A big lesson. Sunday-Tuesday, I ate healthy and thought I wasn't really enjoying it at all. I felt hungry, unsatisfied, etc.
Well, I gave into my favorite food temptation last night, Chinese, after having already snagged some Taco Bell during the day. That's what made me so angry last night when I posted that poem. I was mad at myself for giving in so quickly.
However, I'm kind of glad I did. Because, I then today ate fast food 3 more times!! And MAN...I suddenly realize exactly what I'm doing to myself when I eat fast food. To put it simply...I'm SICK! You're probably just thinking I ate too much, but the truth is, this is how I used to eat anyways, so it's nothing new. But after filling my body with more healthy things for 3 days, this felt like a total binge and now my stomach hurts, I have no energy...I just want to collapse! It's got me wondering if this is how it's always been, and I just didn't realize it because my body was so immune to the effects of too many calories.
I'm thinking it is...and if that's the case, UGH! I hate this. I'm exhausted and sick to my stomach and that's not good because I have school work to finish. And here I was having energy to even read my history book and stay interested!! That's a first for a long time.
I totally don't like this feeling at all. I think I'm sticking with a fruit salad for lunch tomorrow because, seriously, if you put anything greasy in front of me...oh no...just the thought makes me want to hurl!!
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